It's been over two years, why am I not over it yet?
I'm the kind of person who needs to talk out their problems. Now I can't do that and it hurts. So. Much.
I just spent over an hour on the phone with my dad before he hung up to take another call (which is FINE. I KNOW I talk too much), but I've been holding in a whole week's worth of stuff and an hour isn't enough time. I'll just have to keep holding it in. Until I explode. Or get a therapist.